EmilyLennon

Ugh why must my house be cursed with so much CRAP SERIOUSLY UGH THIS IS GOING TO TAKE FOREVER TO PACK HAHA I'm scheduled to move into my new house on November 23 (The day after thanksgiving! Thanks mom, guess no black friday shopping for me then! XD) and since we seriously have SO MUCH SHIT we are already packing the basement and the garage mother of dick I am Emily, of Ohio, and I am burdened with PILES OF USELESS CRAP FUCKIN SHIT MAN so who's gonna break the new house in with me?(;

I seriously don't even know how to title these anymore haha because this (obviously) is where I have my little rants, seeing as at least I'm getting it out even though probably no one reads it Which actually doesn't bother me it's better than writing in a diary that I just end up burning once I've filled it, or praying to Gods I don't even know if I believe in anymore but either way, this fucking sucks I'm just ugh I don't even know it's like walking through the LaBrea Tar Pits every fucking day scratch that, try swimming yeah and it's not even worth being so depressed either, I'm just lonely I never have anyone to talk to anymo

I've been noticing this week, and half of last week. Shortly after Issy's death, there have been a concerning amount of suicide attempts within my school. And quite a few of them are more of my friends, and two of my very close friends. And it's scary because I don't know that if all that I'm trying to do for them is enough, and I can't lose anyone else, not so soon, and certainly not those two people. Because I don't know what I'd do. That's the problem with something as tragic as this. It blinds people into thinking they only have one way out and that they need to be with that person again. I'll just keep praying for things to return